Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Need I say more??

I am itching to write for quite sometime now and I opened my blog some 2 hours back to push myself into writing something. Got a chance to open some of my old posts and it is a pure De-Javu feeling while going through the posts. It felt like re-living the emotions and memories behind each post, felt like going a documentation of some of the best moments of my life.The central feeling behind each one of these posts is that most of them were written while going through some sort of emotional experiences.

Needless to say, I know that I use to write whatever comes to my mind but still writing gives me such a pleasure,which is difficult to write in itself.
Today is one of the days I want to freeze the memory of the entire life.
Out of lack of motivation and low attention span,I was skipping this post for quite some time. Today was not a great day for me,so I may be writing without the feeling which I try to put in my posts most of the times.

Overall the way things are progressing over the past few days seems great. Wants some answers at this stage but not getting answers to either one of them.I told my priorities,but still my luck has not replied me back.So finding myself in a strange state that is difficult to explain.

One question that keeps on hitting me is whether I expect a lot.Is it that we should let things to go the way they are going or we should try to get the best of the same rather than being circumlocutory with the life. I always tried to be clearly spoken, but guessing that expecting the same doesn't seems to be right this time.

I want to see a dream tonight.It's been a long time when I woke up seeing a dream.So want a dream earnestly tonight. 
One that takes me out of this state of inactivity. One that proves to me that my life is not inanimate. One where I don't have to spend days staring at the Facebook wall on the junk laptop. One where I don't have to think of what to do. I don't want to feel so devoid of color and music like I do these days. I don't want this to become a permanent feature in my life.
Today  I want to write about every little good things about me and tell people how pretty they are.I want to get rid of the cynicism surrounding the space and want to see the future arrive.

I am exactly not sure whether I am happy or sad tonight and what am I writing now.So better is to have a sound sleep.
Being a dreamer has worked for me and waking up after a good dream gives me such a big relief.We don't have a switch or control on a dream but dreams have always motivated me to do well. 

Now really feeling sleeping so wrapping it up on the note that I really need to see a good dream tonight.................................

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Messed up!!!!!

Things were going fine,
had some doubts,
but was unfazed
and life was smooth,
even some hiccups were not a big deal.

But no one knows,
what luck has in store for me.
Everyday comes up with a new surprise,
and how I responds to this,
is a mystery in itself.
Is n't it possible for someone to fix it up,
or life will remain as messed up as always??????

It all started with Chetan Bhagat,who has been my role model at times.But "My State" today seems to be good case study for the next novel to be published by Mr. Bhagat.I know that it is wrong to blame a person and that too your role model for your own foolishness.But I being a normal human being can do it for the sake of peace and composure,even for a glimpse,but it gives some relief for sure.

Is it that responding as a naive is such a big deal?
Today weekend started on the usual note,with nothing special as such.But things changed much faster as expected as the day progressed.

Got chance to know some real weaknesses in myself and discovered some real one's that I should fix soon.
Should not write them here but have improved a bit on this behalf but still need to work on it.Really thankful to some real good friends to identify these weakness.
The problem which I witnessed today is the inability to hide my feelings.The problem with being original is that there is a difference in perception of two different persons.I may want to convey something else,but framing it in the wrong way can be a setback for the other person and he may even get hurt.
Being original at times has worked out for me but learnt now that being practical is a better approach that being original.

Good that I got my weakness but the way that I got was the most contradictory way for sure.
We are lucky if we know our weakness but if someone else identified it for you and you are still not working on it,then it will be the biggest mistake ever committed by you.

The gist of all this writing is that I am not perfect and am as stupid as any other person can be at times.
Don't have much words to express my feeling at this juncture.
At times,being optimistic has worked out for me.So hoping that it works out yet again.

Monday, February 13, 2012

Left or Right????

Yesterday read an article classifying a person on the basis of the dominating part of brain.

The first category belongs to a person having the left part of brain as the dominating.He loves to be a logical decision maker.This group includes scientists,researcher and scholars.

The other group includes those with the right hemisphere dominating.They include the artists,dreamers,philosophers and the musicians.But the right part holds the key to creativity in a person.They may seem dumber in the first look but looking at the bigger picture,these are the one's, who have been the key to future.Actually the first group loves to be the critic while the other like the privilege to be critic-ed.

So thinking the base definition and all,which part of my brain seems to be dominating.I may be "left hemisphered" but the right hemisphere seems more enticing.
So if left is right for me or vice versa. Now it seems to be out of my hand so ending this on a confusing note.Need to regress it once again but it looks like a Herculean task to me.

Ending this on a good note which will definitely bring a little smile after this nasty post:
Dear Optimist,Pessimist and Realist, While you guys were busy arguing for the glass of water,I drank it!!!!!! Your Own, Opportunist

Thursday, February 2, 2012


Not sure,how things are shaping up and what exactly we want from life!!!!
But this picture evokes me to be alone,quite alone for some time.There are couple of things which always keeps you confusing and there is not a single answer for the same.
This is a perfect picture if we will get into the depth of it.Two types of feeling are shading in my mind.

The first being your friend walking your side and share this awesome moment with you.There is an utter silence and the pleasant breeze can be heard and felt.
The second view where the nature overwhelms you.You are grateful to every bits and pieces provided and life can not have being much better.You are grateful to every pleasure and goodness you've felt and seen.

The need to be alone when this warm tingling invokes you is an experience in itself and it is quite difficult to express in words.What is noteworthy here is the horizon which looks cold and misty ,and the environment being insomniac.The blurred grass is a beauty in itself and it certainly is one of the best photo being shot till date:)

I guess this post is getting a bit nasty and I am feeling to be sounding hopelessly optimistic,but being a nature lover has its side-effects and hangover;)